On Being Awake in a Sleeping World

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When you’re awake, you’re no longer numb.

You can no longer turn away from Truth.

You can no longer comfort yourself with the old fairy tales, stories of good and evil, positive thinking.

The light of awareness cannot be switched off. You can’t hide from yourself now. There’s nowhere to hide.

You live life in the raw. And you feel more than ever, not less. Your bandwidth is infinite. From the deepest despair to the most ecstatic joy, it all passes through. But the difference is, now, you are not at war with it all. You allow all feelings to surge through. You don’t judge them or try to get rid of them. You are their mother, their sanctuary. You don’t blame anyone else anymore.

You no longer have a fixed identity. You don’t know who you are anymore, from the perspective of the mind. And yet, you know who you are more deeply than ever. You are alive. You are life itself, inseparable from the stars, the moon, the flowers and trees.

It is dizzying, sometimes, this freedom. Like being born again in every moment. Like dying every day to the old hopes.

Reality is groundless, you see, dripping with uncertainty. You live at the point of total insecurity, nothing to hold onto, no concept to bring comfort to a weary mind. And yet, you feel the deepest kind of security of all, a security deep within your bones, the security of Being itself. You know that your experience is always trustable, even if it hurts like hell.

You won’t call yourself an ‘awakened person’, you won’t think of yourself as better or worse than anyone, you won’t lie to yourself about having the answers.

You won’t make a big fuss about yourself at all, for the self is the biggest illusion.

It’s simple, being so fully awake, because it is the effortless embrace of the present moment. But it’s not easy at all, because your old reality has shattered into a billion pieces, and the old protection has gone, and you are a vessel for all the joy and the pain of the world, and you can’t kid yourself that you’re in control any longer. It’s not easy, to be so open to life. It’s not easy, to see all the pain of the world. It’s not easy, to sometimes feel like you’re a stranger in a strange land, knowing yourself as Love more clearly than ever, yet seeing others around you forgetting so much.

It’s not easy, no longer fitting into the systems that promised so much happiness and delivered so little.

And yet, this is the price you pay for absolute freedom. One cannot be fully awake without fully dying to the dreams of yesterday. One cannot live without leaving the known.

Those of you who are walking this exhilarating and terrifying path, I bow to your courage.

Sursa – Jeff Foster (www.lifewithoutacentre.com)


Gratie si Forta


Iluminarea sau eliberarea pune capat suferintei. Gautama Buddha, de exemplu, a afirmat ca el i-a invatat pe altii doar doua lucruri: ce provoaca suferinta si cum sa-i puna capat. Suferinta e cauzata de perceptiile si dorintele sinelui separat, iar ceea ce ii pune capat este calea meditatiei care transcende sinele si dorintele. Suferinta este inerenta “nodului” sau „contractiei” cunoscute ca sine, si singurul mod de a pune capat suferintei este de a pune capat sinelui insusi. Nu inseamna ca dupa iluminare sau dupa practica spirituala, in general, nu vei mai simti durere, chin sau frica. Le simti. Este vorba pur si simplu de faptul ca ele nu iti mai ameninta existenta si, prin urmare, inceteaza sa mai fie problematice. Nu te mai identifici cu ele, nu le mai dramatizezi, nu le mai energizezi, nu mai esti amenintat de ele. Pe de o parte, nu mai exista nici un sine fragmentat care sa ameninte, si pe de alta parte, marele Sine nu poate fi amenintat deoarece, el fiind Totul, nu exista nimic in afara lui care i-ar putea face rau. In inima apare o relaxare, o deconectare profunda. Individul isi da seama ca, indiferent cat de multa suferinta poate sa apara, ea nu-i va afecta in mod fundamental Fiinta reala. Suferinta vine si pleaca, dar persoana poseda acum „pacea care depaseste intelegerea”. Inteleptul simte suferinta, dar nu il mai doare. Deoarece inteleptul e constient de suferinta, el este motivat de compasiune, de dorinta de a-i ajuta pe toti cei care sufera si cred ca suferinta e reala.


Exercitiul Martorului

Am un corp, dar nu sunt corpul meu. Pot sa-mi vad si sa-mi simt corpul, iar ceea ce poate fi vazut si simtit nu este adevarata Entitate care Vede. Corpul meu poate fi obosit sau activ, bolnav sau sanatos, greu sau usor, nelinistit sau calm, dar nu are nimic de-a face cu sinele interior, Martorul. Am un corp, dar nu sunt corpul meu.

Am dorinte, dar nu sunt dorintele mele. Pot sa-mi cunosc dorintele, iar ceea ce poate fi cunoscut nu este adevarata Entitate care Cunoaste. Dorintele vin si pleaca, trec prin constiinta mea, dar ele nu imi afecteaza sinele interior, Martorul. Am dorinte, dar nu sunt dorintele mele.

Am emotii, dar nu sunt emotiile mele. Pot sa-mi simt si sa-mi inteleg emotiile, iar ceea ce poate fi simtit si inteles nu este adevarata Entitate care Simte. Emotiile trec prin mine, dar ele nu-mi afecteaza sinele interior, Martorul. Am emotii, dar nu sunt emotiile mele.

Am ganduri, dar nu sunt gandurile mele. Pot sa-mi vad si sa-mi cunosc gandurile, iar ceea ce poate fi cunoscut nu este adevarata Entitate care Cunoaste. Gandurile vin si pleaca, dar ele nu-mi afecteaza sinele interior, Martorul. Am ganduri, dar nu sunt gandurile mele.

Sunt ceea ce ramane, un centru pur al constiintei, un Martor nemiscat al tuturor acestor ganduri, emotii, sentimente, senzatii.


Misticismul real presupune in primul rand sa descoperi lumina de dincolo de forma, si apoi sa descoperi absenta formei dincolo de lumina.


Sursa: Ken Wilber – Gratie si Forta

Brave is the Man Who Loves a Wild Woman


We all long for that magnificant moment when you meet that amazing person who is brave enough to Love you just as you are.

Whenever that excuisite in-sync moment arrives —you will ‘know’. When you meet your Beloved and find out that this person dares to fully Love you to your bones, you will be grateful that it never worked out with anyone else.

While you may have deep emotions, a Wild and unpredictable personality, it’s almost impossible to not Love a passionate, extraordinairy and endlessly inspiring woman like you. Most just have no idea what to do or how to truly meet a woman that has depths and a radiant Spirit like you have.

A woman who is not afraid to admit it when she is wrong and always rises after she falls.. It doesn’t matter how deep you fell.. each time you will find the strenght to get up and stand even stronger as ever before. There is nothing you can’t overcome. You know how to re-connect yourself with your deepest calling, which is bigger then any life experience.

You walk with bare feet on Mother Earth and let the juices of nature feed your life energy. You know how to work with the forces of Nature and you never ignore this Sacred connection. You are a daughter of the Earth and the Moon.

You have always known that you are meant for only deep and profound Love, for you it’s the only way to surrender yourself.

So when you stumble upon the brave awakened man who just can’t seem to get enough of you and who is able to fully endure your intensity, you will instantly know that this is the man that possesses the courage that every other Lover you had before lacked.

-Tara Isis Gerris

A New Dawn: The End Of Co-Dependency

You cannot save anyone. You can be present with them, offer your groundedness, your sanity, your peace. You can even share your path with them, offer your perspective. But you cannot take away their pain. You cannot walk their path for them. You cannot give answers that are right for them, or even answers they can digest right now. They will have to find their own answers, ask their own questions or lose their own questions, make friends with their own uncertainty. They will need to make their own mistakes, feel their own sorrows, learn their own lessons. If they truly want to be at peace, they will have to trust the path of healing that reveals itself step by step. But you cannot heal them. You cannot diffuse their fear, their anger, their feelings of powerlessness. You cannot save them, or make things right for them. If you push too hard, they may lose their own unique way. Your way may not be their way.

You did not create their pain. You may have done or not done some things, said or not said some things, triggering pain that was already inside them. But you did not create it, and you are not guilty, even if they say you are. You can take responsibility for your words and deeds, yes, you can grieve over a past, but you cannot erase or change what happened, and you cannot control the future. You can only meet them in the here and now, your only place of power. You are not responsible for their happiness, and they are not responsible for yours.

Your happiness cannot come from outside of you. If it does, it is a dependent happiness, a fragile happiness that will turn to sorrow so quickly. And then you will get caught up in a web of blame and guilt, regret and persecution. Your happiness is directly related to your presence, your connection with your breath, your body, the earth. Your happiness is not small, and cannot be removed by fear, or anger, or the most intense shame. Your happiness is not a state, or a passing experience, or even a feeling that others can give to you. Your happiness is vast, ever-present, the boundless space of the heart, in which joy and sorrow, bliss and boredom, certainty and doubt, loneliness and connection, even fear and longing, can move like the weather, like the rain and the sunshine, all held in the hugeness of the sky.

You cannot save anyone, and you cannot be saved if you are looking to be saved. There is no self to save, no self to lose, no self to defend, no self to make perfect or perfectly happy. Let go of every impossible ideal. You are beautiful in your imperfection, outrageously perfect in your doubts, loveable even in your feelings of unloveability. All these parts have been given, all are parts of the whole, and you were never less than whole.

You are breathing. You know you are alive. You have a right to exist, feel what you feel, think what you think. You have a right to your joy and a right to your sorrows. You have a right to doubt too. You have a right to walk your path. You have a right to be right and a right to be wrong, a right to this giant happiness that you knew when you were young. You are breathing, and you are inseparable from the life force that animates all things, knows itself as all beings, discovers itself in every moment of this impossibly wondrous existence.

Your self-worth is not tied to what others think of you. It is tied to the moon, to the infinite expanse of the cosmos, to comets blazing towards unknown destinations, to the forgetting of time and the love of solitude and this unspeakable gratitude for each new dawn, unexpected, given.

-Jeff Foster


Cu trenul…

Plictisita sa tot stea la benzina si speriata ca ar fi putut sa aiba vreo pana cine-stie pe ce coclauri, cand se ivea cate-o „recuperare”, urmand in cele din urma exemplul soacra-sii, urca-n tren la „a doua” ca s-auda ce vorbeste poporul si se ducea sa mai simta nitel sub talpi si altceva decat asfaltul. Acum, in compartiment se aflau trei tarani, doi – ca la cincizeci de ani, unul – ca la saptezeci. Isi cerura iertare ca o scosesera pe culoar pana sa-si coţopenească ei sacii cu paine sus in plasele de bagaje.

– Puneti-i fara grija ca eu n-am decat rucsacul asta de copil.

– Va multumim, doamna draga.

Pareau ardeleni dupa bundele de oaie-ntoarsa, cu niste modele colorate pe langa copci. Nu se cunosteau intre ei.

Se-asezasera. Dupa ce porni trenul, isi scoase fiecare un servet si-l puse pe picioare, isi taie paine de oras si slana. Fiecare-i intinse Sînzienei cate-o felie de paine cu bucateke de slanina.

– Gustati si dumneavoastra, doamna draga.

Dupa un timp, unul dintre cei doi barbati mai tineri zise:

– Apă’ că nici la Capitală nu mai e nimic…

– D-apăi că unde mai e? răspunse cel de cam aceeaşi vârstă.

– Măi, ficiori, li se-adresă cel mai bătrân, copii aveţi?

– Avem.

– Însuratu-i-aţi?

– Însurat.

– Căşi făcutu-le-aţi?

– Făcut.

– Şi-atuncea vreun petec la mâneci n-aţi mai pus, nu v-aţi mai strâmtorat o ţâră?

Cei doi se uitara unul la altul si-apoi amandoi facura la Sînziana. Ea ridica din sprancene; de unde sa stie ea unde “batea” ăl bătrân.

– Am pus petece, dreptu-i.

– Apăi acuma, măi ficiori, îşi face ţara casă.

Cei doi amutira si se posomorara. Se lasase o tacere pe care Sînziana oricum n-avea de gând s-o rupă.

– Apăi, dumnezăii mamii ei de casă, cine-o pus s-o facă cu eataj ?! răbufni peste vreo cincizeci de kilometri unul dintre cei doi mai tineri şi-şi trase căciula pe ochi în semn că se spusese tot ce era de spus şi că el se punea să doarmă.

16 decembrie 1989


„N-a fost niciodata sa nu fie cumva…”


„Era la varsta la care traiesti mai mult din ce nu mananci decat din ce mananci.”


„Un barbat care nu-ti da e ca si cum ti-ar lua.”

sursa: Ileana Vulpescu – Carnetul din port-hart

If You Choose to Love an Awakened Woman

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If you choose to love an awakened woman, understand that you are entering into new, radical and challenging territory.

If you choose to love an awakened woman, you cannot stay asleep.

If you choose to love an awakened woman, every part of your Soul will be aroused, not just your sexual organs or even your heart.

Frankly, if you prefer a normal life, stick with a normal girl.

If you want a tame life, seek only a woman who has allowed herself to be tamed.

If you only want to dip your toe into the flowing waters of Shakti, stay with the safe, tamed woman who has not yet plunged into the wildness of the Sacred Feminine ocean.

It is comfortable to love a woman who has not yet activated her inner sacred powers, because she does not push your buttons.

She will not challenge you.

She will not press you into becoming your highest Self.

She will not awaken the forgotten and numbed-out parts of your Spirit that urge you to remember that there is more to your Life here than this.

She will not look into your weary eyes and send a lightning bolt of Truth through your body, jolting you awake and stirring long-lost desires for Soul Love within you.

A safe, unawakened woman will be wonderfully satisfying and soothing to your ego, heart, and body. She will walk quietly beside you and make you feel needed, responsible, like you are fulfilling your manly role.

If this is enough for you then accept it, love her with all your heart, remain faithful to her and thank her daily for the gift of her mild, unthreatening feminine presence in your life.

If this is not enough for you – if your heart, body and spirit is only craving the ‘other kind of woman’, the Wild One – then know that you are on the cusp of Soul-Shifting transformation.

Know that you are making a serious choice with karmic consequences.

If you choose to step into the aura and body of a woman whose spiritual fires are blazing, you are accepting that you need a certain level of danger and risk in order to grow.

Once you begin to love a woman of this nature, you must accept total responsibility for the life-changes that will then ensue.

Your life will not be sleepily comfortable all the time. Your life will not allow you to stay stuck in old ruts and stagnant routines. Your life will take on a radically-new flavour and scent. You will be ignited by the presence of the Wild Feminine, and it will begin to send electric shockwaves of spiritual Light through your entire chakra system, attuning you to the Call of the Divine.

Choosing to be sexually and romantically-intimate with an awakened woman takes masculine courage to walk fearlessly into the Unknown. But it will reap rewards beyond your mind’s comprehension.

She will take you into undiscovered worlds of mystery and magic.

She will lead you, mesmerised and half-drunk with love, into the wild forests of sensual ecstasy and wonder.

She will show you sacred skies so full and burning with stars that you will start to wonder if you are still living on the same planet that you were born on.

She will break and tear you open so that your fierce, passionate heart drives you half-mad with longing. You will want to consume and penetrate her on every level so that your Masculine Essence can consume and penetrate the world – illuminating the Universe with your devoted Love.

She will see you like you’ve never been seen before.

She will trust you.

She will appreciate you.

She will acknowledge your efforts to make her happy.

She will value everything good that you do, and everything good that you are.

She will not run from your darkness, because your darkness does not scare her.

She will embrace, kiss, caress and love you back to Life. She will speak words that your Soul understands. She will not punish you for your mistakes.

It is a monumental risk to love an awakened woman, because there is suddenly no place to hide. She sees everything, therefore she can love you with a depth and presence that your heart and body have yearned for so hard, so long, so fiercely…that you wonder whether you have actually been alive for all the time that she has been away.

Loving a woman like this is a choice you make to start living with your Soul on fire.

Your life will never be the same again once you’ve invited her energy in.

Take this risk on yourself, or step back, stay with the normal girl and accept a different, safer, more comfortable and somewhat calmer life.

Just make sure that if you choose the latter, you don’t spend the rest of your days with your eyes looking back over your shoulder, straining to see once again the hazy vision of Feminine Mystery that has now disappeared from view.

She has long gone..spiralling back up to the Stars, the distant Galaxies and the Heavens…from where She came.

Author: Sophie Bashford

Incredere si iubire

Dorinta de certitudine (financiara, in relatii, etc) te limiteaza mai mult decat crezi.
Din dorinta de certitudine renunti la suflet, la timpul tau, la descoperiri fascinante, la posibilitati noi care nu sunt evidente de la inceput.
Nu exista certitudini pe lumea asta. Sunt o iluzie. Lasa dorintele tale mici in urma. Viata are sa-ti ofere experiente mult mai bogate, mai splendide si mai marete decat poti sa-ti imagininezi tu mental.
Lasa orice dorinta de siguranta. Abandoneaza-te Vietii. Singura certitudine de care ai nevoie este increderea (in suflet, nu doar mentala) – increderea absoluta ca totul se aseaza in cel mai bun mod pentru tine, ca Viata are grija de tine, ca esti protejat si iubit de intreg universul, ca tot ce ai nevoie ai, o sa primesti, si mai simte ca esti Extraordinar, ca persoana.
Lasa lucrurile sa se aseze in cel mai natural mod. Nu forta nimic. Pastreaza mintea si sufletul deschis si flexibil. Lasa resursele si oamenii de care ai nevoie sa vina de unde le e lor mai usor sa vina, nu de unde te astepti tu. De fapt, nu mai avea nici un fel de asteptari. Tu doar simte si contientizeaza in sufletul tau ce ai nevoie, insa nu-ti seta modalitate prin care o sa vina la tine, lasa lucrurile sa se aseze cum le e lor mai usor.
Doar lasa-te purtat (la propriu) de catre sufletul tau, mergi unde simti, fa ce simti, fii gata sa lasi totul in spate si sa descoperi lumi noi.

Si cel mai frumos este ca atunci cand ai incredere ca primesti ce ai nevoie, asa si se intampla.
Cand nu te mai stresezi legat de bani, insa ai incredere deplina ca o sa ajunga cumva la tine, viata iti ofera cele mai bune surse, la care nu te-ai fi gandit vreodata. Increderea deplina nu e mentala. Increderea deplina e atunci cand simti cu totul sufletul ca ceva ce ai nevoie sa se intample e ca si realizat, si te bucuri de asta, si esti recunoscator , ca pentru un fapt deja implinit.
Cand nu mai esti stresat daca esti in siguranta unde mergi, incepi sa fii in siguranta oriunde mergi.
Cand nu mai cauti certitudinea in relatii, incepi sa te bucuri si sa pretuiesti la maxim fiecare moment, pentru ca nu stii daca va mai fi altul maine, sau peste o saptamana.
Si fiindca ambii pretuiti fiecare clipa, asta tinde continue natural mai mult, decat daca ai fi fortat.

Cand realizezi ca nimic nu e sigur imprejur, si totusi TU esti impacat(a) cu asta, si te bucuri de fiecare moment, si esti recunoscato(a)r(e) pentru tot ce ai primit, magia se intampla.


“Dragostea” e de 2 feluri: Dorinta si Daruire. Sunt doua sentimente opuse.

Dorinta fata de celalalt, de “a-l avea/a o avea”, numita si pasiune, daca e simtita timp indelungat fara a fi satisfacuta, il face pe celalalt, care e “obiectul” dorintei, sa se simta stors de energie, vlaguit, nefericit. Am simtit personal, pe piela mea, efectul asta de multe ori, e un sentiment foarte neplacut, deoarece cel/cea care te “vrea”, tot obtine o bucatica din tine, daca nu fizic, macar energetic tot “rupe” din tine.

Opusul acestui sentiment este dorinta de a DARUI celuilalt, de a-i OFERI alinare, fericire, momente frumoase, de a-l incuraja, ridica, etc. Asta poate fi numita Dragoste ADEVARATA. Celalalt se simte atunci (chiar si fara a sti de ce) fericit, plin de energie, prinde aripi, pentru ca el/ea primeste energia pe care tu i-o trimiti/oferi.

Per total, e importanta si pasiunea si dorinta de a darui, insa in proportie mult mai mare dorinta de a darui decat dorinta de a “avea”. Pentru mine personal, 70%/30% e perfect.

Deci, rezum, cand vrei pe cineva, insa celalalt nu raspunde chemarii tale, iar tu continui sa il/o vrei, il “furi”, “vapirizezi” energetic. Cand, in schimb, doar ii doresti tot binele din lume, ii trimiti din energia ta, il/o “umpli” cu energie.

Asa ca dragilor si dragelor, sa facem bine celorlalti, mai putin sa “te am” si mai mult “sa-ti daruiesc”


Exista doua lumi diferite, care exista paralel.
Una e lumea Dorintelor de a primi.
Alta e lumea Iubirii pure si adevarate, de a dărui.
Aceste lumi par asemănătoare, insa sunt opuse ca esența.

Multi vorbesc de iubire, insa de multe ori vorbim doar de dorintele noastre de a “avea” pe cineva alaturi, de a primi afectiune si atentie, de a ne simti doriti, etc.
Aia nu este iubire. Ala e doar golul nostru din interior care se vrea acoperit. Aia e o iluzie care niciodata nu o sa te faca implinit, si o sa suferi in final de fiecare data.

Iubirea adevarata include si dorinta? Nu, nu include. Dorinta e doar dorinta, nu iubire. Poate exista iubire sincera si libera intre doua persoane, si sa traiasca ambii momente magice impreuna? Da, poate.

Iubirea sincera nu are nici o dorinta in ea, in afara dorintei de a darui si a lasa complet liber pe celalat!
Iubirea pura cauta doar binele celuilalt, fara asteptari, fara conditii. Total si absolut!

Am sa incerc sa ilustrez cam cum arata iubirea adevarata:

Te-ai simtit vreodata atat de plin(a) de iubire si fericire, incat ti-a venit sa zambesti si sa imbratisezi pe orice om care se apropie de tine? Ii doresti sincer tot binele din lume si ii oferi caldura sufletului tau, fara a selecta cine si care!

Te-ai simtit vreodata atat de minunat alaturi de o persoana, incat timpul a disparut si tot ce exista era momentul acela? atunci nu mai exista trecut sau viitor, nu mai exista asteptari fata de maine, pentru ca nu exista nici un maine!

Te-ai daruit complet, cu toata deschiderea si iubirea, fara a sti daca urmeaza o data viitoare, fara a astepta ca sa urmeze o continuare, insa liber(a) si impacata(a) in acelasi timp cu asta?

I-ai dorit cuiva tot binele din lume si l-ai lasat liber sa plece, daca era spre binele lui/ei, si te-ai bucurat de faptul ca o sa-i fie mai bine acolo unde pleaca?

Sau iubirea mamei fata de copil. La majoritatea mamelor, orice ar face acel copil, cat de urat, mama oricum o sa aiba grija de el si o sa-l sustina pe termen lung.

Asta e iubirea pura, si e dincolo de cuvinte. Poate fi doar traita si simtita.

Elibereaza-te de orice dorinte. Elibereaza-te orice atasamente. Elibereaza-te de orice asteptari.
Si traieste in momentul prezent, fii recunoscator pentru orice suflet care il intalnesti, pentru fiecare clipa magica petrecuta alaturi de cineva, fara a-ti dori sa mai urmeze neaparat o “continuare”. Daca e sa se lege natural, sa fie, daca nu – nu.

Doar atunci ramane frumusetea pura si superba a iubirii adevarate, cand te bucuri si esti recuoscator pentru fiecare moment, si doar cauti sa impartasesti feciricirea ta cu altii/altul/alta.
Atunci e libertatea adevarata, pentru ca te eliberezi de toate asteptarile si dorintele care iti pot provoca suferinta. E doar… fericire, recunostinta si iubire.

Da, poate fi dificil pana ajungi sa traiesti asa. Insa merita. Pentru ca e un extaz dincolo de cele mai frumoase fantezii care le-ai putea avea.

Iubire si libertate!


“Fiecare femeie, pe langa frumusetea fizica, mai are un tip aparte de frumusete. E acea lumina interioara, acel izvor de dragoste, acel extaz al sufletului beat de iubre si libertate, frumusete pe care o nu o poti vedea instant. Umple-o pe femeia ta de iubire, ofera-i atata dragoste pana nu mai poate cuprinde si apoi priveste-o cum infloreste ca un boboc de lalea, cum straluceste ca cea mai lumnoasa stea si isi revarsa asupra ta dragostea ca un râu… E frumos sa-i oferi flori unei femei. E si mai frumos s-o faci sa infloreasca. Iubiti si fiti iubiti!”



                                                                                                                                      Dan Vi